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Better Not Broken.

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I don't know where to start, from the time when we got close, or the time when the time that got us closer. I have been thinking about your face alot lately, and I have been gazing down to my balcony way too much. Listening to songs you introduced me to and dancing like I would with you, and laughing like you would make me. I don't know if its possibly true but this time I haven't missed a single thing about you; but us. All the us that we never caught up to, all the us that we had planned. I know, I know, our plans never really came true, but baby, I dont care! And I admit, we are not what we want from each other, but that doesn't mean I can't daydream about how delicious our good memories are. And how you and I just create a mess but we clean up. And that you fucking support me for things that are almost unreachable and I do the same. How badly we want each other to be happy even if its apart? I just cannot imagine living in this c...
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The Hostess

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He gave me a you-don't-have-to-do-this look when I kept a tray of fruits chopped and mug of soup on his bed. "Finish this quick. I've got some more work to do and I won't be around all the time to look after you." I ordered him as if I owned him. This was the third time that he has fallen sick in this season. Is he a kid? And has he ever told me about his conditions whenever this happens? It was his roommate again who did the honors ofcourse. "He hasn't eaten anything since morning and now he looks like a stick of tree, so weak!" Told his roommate to me on call and that was why came by his place where he was lying on bed, doing nothing but irritate us all with his bad habit of taking things lightly as always. As I was leaving finally Mr. Viral Fever spoke "Stop treating me so well. I will get habitual to your pampering." I smiled, hearing him asking me to not worry about him. He has grown up enough to tell me what I should do and not e...
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Sweet Lie

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Dear love, I read somewhere that we shouldn't take decisions when we are sad, and I'm very sad right now so I'll not take any.  Although I really want to leave you alone. Things you said to me when you were drunk, I know you meant them.  I know that you respect me and care for me and you love me as well. But not like that. You'd cry the day we will part our ways,  you'd even cry just even thinking about it.  But you still won't love me back. You already said that this is because of you, not me. And that you have an image inside your head, this ideal image of your last love that you keep trying to find in every girl you meet. Unfortunately, I'm not her. I don't know if you'll find her or someone like her whom you can love confidently. I hope you do, I really hope you find what you are looking for. 'Cause if you don't then all this suffering will be for nothing.  I sometimes laugh at the way we are so perfectly wrong for each o...
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What about us?

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Do you still think? When you open your social media and see anything, just anything. Do you think maybe I saw it too? Do you think I'd also be having the same thoughts like you when I saw it? When you go through your gallery and find the hidden folder that contains my photos, do you regret that? Or maybe when you ride your bike going somewhere random and stopping at a signal, do you think about that long drive that came short. Sometimes when you'd go out with your friends or watch a movie or read that book we talked about, do you still think of returning?  While watching anything on Netflix do you remember that joke I cracked about 'Netflix and chilling alone'? Why would you, you didn't even get that joke. Or I'm just not worth laughing with.   I have to make sure that you still think of about me, that I think about it all the time. I know you don't seem to feel like talking and I have every day made sure to keep it that way.  But I...
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Just For Fun.

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There is no need of thinking about where to go what to do. As long as we are together, it's fun! We could be walking on busy roads just holding hands and talking; it'll be fun. We could be sitting on the sidewalk at night in the dark and do nothing; it'll be fun. We could go on drives in no specific direction snuggling and smiling; it'll be fun. We could be taking bites from each other's food, eating really bad junk food for no reason, going to super crowded places and then whining about privacy; it'll still be fun. We could fight over nothing and make no efforts or we could just talk like we are best friends since childhood. We could be sharing our favourites, genres, passions and disgraces. Making each other watch weird stuff and send stupid memes just to start a conversation, it'd be fun. We could feed stray cats and hang out with them, we could touch the dog with dirty hair make them follow us. We could get into conversations about how sp...
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I'll be there for you

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It's friendships day. And my mind can only think of rare people in my life.                        I am not a family person, I've never been one. I am since birth a peer person. Always putting friends on prior places. I have learned more from them than my parents and not in a good way. I was a submissive one in my early friendship stages. It took time to come to a level where I stopped taking orders. I have had constants that became distant. I call them lessons now. Best mistakes I made while hitting puberty.                   Obviously an ingredient to my current presentation. There was this girl I met who became my first and longest 'bff'. Very good looking and sharp. She taught me things that my mother can't know that I know. We were those best friends who did everything hand in hand, well most of the time. Its all kinds of things that makes one come closer to you...
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By the park.

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Good one Timmy!" said the dog owner when he came back with a stick in his mouth. Wiggling his tail, his mouth looked like it is smiling. I am not sure if dogs actually smiled. I am not a dog person for sure I said to myself. I could never keep up to that animal's spirit. Kicking the stone away with my feet I walked forward. I don't know why people do that, does it make us look cool? What kind of person could possibly look cool while kicking a stupid stone while he is walking!? Suddenly there's a loud barking behind me but I cannot care less because I'm overthinking right now and I don't wanna disturb my chain of thoughts. 'Oh, look how interesting the print of my shoes are! The soil is so brown and it has a lot of small stones. I cannot possibly kick all those stones. Remember what mom said yesterday, that I am awful of a person to be an adult. Stubborn and uneasy. I guess that's why she doesn't talk much to me but much more about me. ...
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